Sunday, May 10, 2009

My Mother's Day

I remember when I was growing up, I would try to do everything in my power to give my mom a great mother's day. I would get up early and start making her breakfast in bed. Make coffee for her and bring it up to her and sit with her and talk. When the rest of the kids would wake up I would find something for them to do so they would feel part of the breakfast in bed thing. The week before I would find the perfect gift and the perfect card to make her cry...and it would usually work! I would help my mom with the other kids and getting dinner ready and anything else she needed. I loved celebrating mother's day with my mom.

When I became a mom 4 1/2 years ago, I was so excited to be a mom. Even though Julia couldn't do anything, Brad would have a card for me signed in a silly way from Julia and a little gift. As we had Jade and the girls got older they would make pictures and help daddy make breakfast. It is the whole inocents of thier gifts and excitement from them that makes it so special. And as they get older I know they will try to make my day as special as they can.
But what I don't get is how to spend the day...Do we go to my moms and then to Brad's mom b/c they are our mothers day and have mine a little bit in the morning and then the rest of the day running around to mom to moms house. Our do we stay home and celebrate my mother's day and just do a phone call to our moms which isn't nice either. Or what if Daddy and the kids make a nice dinner for you...well daddy doing most of the work and me running after the kids and try to keep them out of the way while daddy prepares dinner for me

I love my mom to pieces and would still do anything in my power to give her a great day. I love seeing her and being with her. And for me, well I would never change a thing about being a mother. I love my girls. I love that they want me to put them to be and always need thier good night kiss from me. They love when I come home. They never want me to go. They love to go places with me, They love the cuddling on the couch just before bed. Even though they drive me up the walls most of the day and I lose my tempter with them, they still say I love you and they still call me mommy. Those priceless moments that are only for me, THEIR MOMMY.

I am so thankful to God that he blessed me we these two beautiful girls and it was just what I always wanted for my life when I was growing up so I guess, All my dreams have come true.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

The Things that make me fall deeper in love with You!

In the last 24 hours I have been sick...the girls were sick the week before so we really had not gotten a good night sleep in a while, but when I woke up sick with a upset stomach you stepped up to the plate.
You have always been a great father to our girls and I have never doubted you for a moment but watching you be that main caregiver for the girls just melted my heart.
Telling me that on Friday Night that both girls were crying because they were tired and didn't get their way and you just not knowing what to do at first was kind of what I go through a lot with the kids but you just changed your way of thinking . You got down on the floor and starting chasing Jade which made her laugh...Julia saw you playing and Jade laughing well she saw that it was fun, she joined in and there were no tears. What a great dad.
When Saturday morning rolled around...with no complaining about wanting to sleep, you let me go back to bed and sleep while you feed the kids and cleaned up and let me sleep til 10am. Even though you were tired from having Jade in bed with you all night, it wasn't a thought about going back to bed
During the day, I layed on the hurt just walking and sitting up. You fed the kids, played with them, changed them, and was so selfless it was amazing to witness.
When we met I didn't know what kind of father you would be. But it is so clear now...You are a big giant kid your self. Loves to have fun, so patient, gentle and calm. The girls know just how comforting you are and they know then minute you walk in the door from work, the gentle, calm, patient, selfless father is there to play with them.
I love you Brad and I am so blessed to have a husband that takes care of me but also our girls. I can't thank you enough.
I love you!

Friday, May 8, 2009

Things I am Looking forward to in our Home

1. Above Ground
2. More than 3 rooms
4. Bathrooms that will only be used as bathrooms not kitchen space
5. Girls will have thier own room
6. Our own kitchen
7. Actual Living room
8.Kitchen Table that our whole family can sit at
9. Being able to walk into our place with out going through a whole house and down stairs
10. A backyard that Julia and Jade are safe to play in
11. Closet space for all of us
12. Our own Bathroom
13. My own bathtub
14. Laundry room
15. Not worrying that we are a burden to our family
16. Feeling like a family of our own
17.Toys being in the basement and bedrooms and not in the living room
18. Landing for shoes and coats]

If I really had time, i could list so much more. I am feeling so blessed and happy that our time has finally come. It is still so surreal. I still can't beleive it!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

20 Days in Counting

Being home in the basement with the girls when they are sick makes it so much harded to be in the basement. You feel so trapped and confinded. By 4pm it feels like it has been forever. All i want to do is see the sun shine.
I wish I could pack everything up and just live around the boxes. I could do it and I think Brad could too but I can just see the girls going through each box and mixing everything up. There really isn't too much more to back except the stuff we need for living. So I know the last week of being in the apartment will be so crazy and boxes everywhere but it is so worth it.